"So the question Mr. Warner, now that push has come to shove...."

"...Should you go on chasing dreams or should you say good-bye to love?"

I woke up today with that lyric running through my head for some reason, I can't place a finger on it, but it was one of my favorite lines to sing in the musical "Zombie Prom." I can't believe that it's December already, 31 is coming up quick, and then another life change, moving back to the East Coast!

They say once you become a flight attendant it's in your blood, you yearn and long for it more than life itself, well I can honestly say it's true! I have been fortunate to be given the chance to fly again with US Airways, and I cannot WAIT!

Training is held in Phoenix for 6 weeks with classes starting Jan 24, Feb 7,& Feb 21. I got the first class because the first class in, gets higher seniority, and even tho that limits my time at home with friends and family, I feel this is the right thing to do!

So since I will be pretty much holed up in training, with all my focus and energy going to that, I will probably only update on my blog, and not on FB like I usually do! So for all my friends out there in Phoenix, please help me keep my sanity and keep me company, stop by and say hi!

For my east coast friends, cross your fingers I get Philly, (If not, it's Charlotte, NC) and more importantly, keep in touch, now that I can travel, I plan on seeing all of you again!

peace love and hair grease,

Justin

nothing new on the home front

just the usual stuff, working, gearing up for a new year for marching band and color guard, and judging stuff here and there.... god i need a social life and a bf... lol

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I'm thirty, I said it outloud, fuck i'll scream it, I'M THIRTY!! So much has happened that words and pics couldn't really do it justice. Last week I really hit a low depression of just being in a funk. I couldn't place it as to why, I just was.... Then I spoke to my guidance of all things in life and he said, are you a skyscraper or a pyramid? And after listening to the explanation of if all, a huge smile came across my face and I laughed and knew I was a pyramid....

I may not follow that path of 2.5 kids (asian and adopted none the less), a dog, a house, a trophy husband and that perfect job. But I am ME! I have gone to places most people dream of, I've accomplished things that few could fathom, I got offered a lead role in a musical, and didn't have to audition, they WANTED me, and I have a circle of friends that have and will always be by my side thru thick and thin.....

I am 30, I am proud, and I am me, so Fuck 30 being the end, 30 is my new 20, and I'm going to live life for each day, like Jonathan said, no day but today!

What am I to do?

So I was talking to a close friend of mine whom i hold the greatest admiration for... lemme tell you why.... He has no fear in life and in any aspects of it. Now I'll digress and say I'm sure he is afraid but I've never seen him show it....

We went to school together in Providence, RI, I moved onto my MFA and was too afraid to grow up, he went on to live life, I ended up on the west coast, he moved back to nyc and went back to school. He up and moved to seattle for more school, has finished that, went back to nyc, gotten into his masters program and is now back in seattle to finish that. He has rent up the wazoo, a shitty retail job and more issues to deal with than I could prolly shake a stick at... Yet, I;m the one hiding in the corner not knowing what to do with my life!

I was laid off from work, 2 days ago, it's shitty but it happens, we're in a crappy time and in a nation that isn't sure which way is up! My friend has always been the beaming light of "I can do it!" He taught me the finer things in life, how to eat cereal with water cause we were both too broke to get milk and we missed our chance to eat at school... We both stood strong with each other as RA's thru the thick and thin. He always has the right thing to say to me when i doubt myself at an audition...yet when he calls i fear i can never say the right thing to help or advise.

I'm jobless practically broke again and I want to run away, I can hear his voice just saying, stay strong nettie, celie is only a flight away.... It is times like these where I am eternally grateful to know he's just a phone call away and a mere 4 1/2 hour flight away.... Celie, all I can say is im thankful so much for all you've done! I know greater and even more amazing things lay ahead for you, especially when you are getting your PHD in some amazing place like the UK or Australia!

peace, love, hairgrease, chicken and waffles...

nettie

Where does the time go?

Well after my last post, I haven't died, I just got busy with work, extending Wedding Singer, and then getting cast in Drowsy Chaperone! I've gotten reconnected with the website
www.themeparkreview.com

Im going on a trip in August 2010, 18 days across the midwest/east coast area to ride roller coasters, yes I admit it, I'm a coaster junkie! I'm hoping I get a cool roommate on this trip, and that it goes well! :-)

I've been working like a dog to afford the trip and just to have money in general!
Other than that, nothing too exciting *Sadly*

hope all is well in the cyber world!
-j